Strange, Scary

A few minutes ago, I took out the trash to the gate so that it would be easy to take it to the basurero when they arrive. I did not notice our next door neighbor (I live in a compound) was looking out her 2nd floor window. As I turned to head back to the house, she called me.

"Fiona," I heard faintly. I turned and I saw her on the 2nd floor of her house. "Auntie," I acknowledge her presence. "Hindi ka ba natatakot na mag isa dyan sa bahay mo?" I smiled and responded, "Hindi po. Takot na po ang mga multo sa akin." We both laughed. But as I walked away, I wondered why she asked that question. I've been living in this house alone for more than 2 years now but she never mentioned anything like this to me. Then I remembered the tsismis I heard about her, people said she is a mangkuku***. No one can really say that she is one. She and her family are kinda strange. I thought maybe she sees something ordinary humans do not see? I wanted to rush back to the gate to ask her if she has seen or sensed something in my house but I was afraid I would offend her.

I am not psychic but there have been instances wherein I have sensed or seen something in this house: a radio dial turning and changing stations by itself, floating dresses, footfalls in my room when no one is there, etc. Last time I sensed something was late last year after my uncle died. I saw a shadow pass by me while I was in still in bed watching TV. It could have been my imagination.

Good luck to me.

Unusual Events

A few nights ago, I woke up right in the middle of the night feeling really scared. Feeling ko may "kasama" ako sa room ko and I thought I had no where to go, no one to run to because I was alone. I would not have been that scared if there was someone in the house with me. This is the second time this has happened to me. The first time happened when I was in high school. I woke up in the middle of the night and felt like my late (paternal) grandfather was in the room with me. I stood up and turned on the light and walked around my room. I went back to sleep still feeling scared.

I am sick, I have the flu so I would wake up when I feel pain or if my temperature would rise. I woke up at around 11 PM. Around 1AM, I heard the front door close. I went to check but no one was there. I would know if there was someone who came in the compound because I put bells or chimes on the gate. Pag dumadating yung isang nakatira dito sa compound, alam ko kasi naririnig ko ang gate pati yung pag lakad niya papunta sa unit nila. This time it was just a door. I dismissed it and thought baka guni-guni ko lang.

Kaninang mga 7 AM naman, I was watching this TV series about Allison Dubois, Medium. I was massaging my head while lying on my side when I saw a shadow pass by my side. Parang sa corner ng eye ko so I tried to simulate it baka naman fingers ko yon since I had my hand on my head. It was not my fingers. I knew it was a shadow. I'm not scared but then it can sometimes get to me since I live alone and I feel kinda vulnerable right now,

I am no psychic but there are times I feel strange stuff. This does not happen all the time or most of the time, not even during a particular time of the year. Maybe it's because my uncle passed away recently and people in my family feel it could be him.

I don't know,

Today is better - The next day was better na ito

Pasensya na mga kaibigan. Naging busy lang kasi sa work; nag iba-iba ang sched ko dahil sa training tapos pagod na ako pag dating ko sa bahay. Ito na ang katuloy ng kuwento...


I got home exhausted physically and emotionally. I wanted to just go to sleep and forget about everything but I couldn't. I felt I needed to resolve one issue, my earring. I hoped that I dropped it at home and not anywhere else. I had to sweep/clean my room and the bathroom for the last time. Pinagpag ko pa bed ko, removed my pillows and blanket and ran my palms and fingers onto the top of the bed sheet. Walang hikaw. I shifted through the dirt and found nothing. When I finally hit my bed, I felt worse than ever. As I was sliding my hands under my pillows I was thinking, what if I suddenly feel my ear-ring under my pillow at nandon lang pala. In less than a minute, I felt something like a big piece of dirt under my pillow. It felt odd so I picked it up and looked at it. I turned on the light and discovered that it was the pakaw of my hikaw (the lock or screw of the ear-ring)! Haleluya! I turned on all the lights and swept every place I went to inside the house. Wala. I swept the bathroom floor, the sala floor, the laundry area.... Wala. I really looked. But I was full of hope kasi I found the pakaw, the ear-ring could be inside my house. It could also have been dropped outside when I went out to buy food. Sigh. I went to sleep praying that my ear-ring was in the house.

The next day, after waking up, my initial reaction was to look for my earring. I went to the toilet to do my stuff first, wash face and such. Then I went to where I left the dirt from last night sweeping, it wasn't there. I inspected every corner of my bed, it wasn't there. I went back to my bedroom and did one last sweeping. Wala talaga. Mukhang wala ng pag asa. I went back to the toilet. Lo and behold! The earring was on the carpet! It appeared as if someone had just dropped it there for me to see! I swept the bathroom floor before going to sleep, I saw small pieces of tissue paper on the carpet. If my ear ring was there, I definitely would have seen it.

I find it amusing that I sometimes lose things and find them eventually in places I've already looked. Feeling ko lang may naglalaro sa akin. This isn't the first time this happened to me.

Anyways, all is well that ends well. My co-worker got the sched fair and square (sinuhulan nya yung gumagawa ng schedule hehehe). I have adjusted to my time zone, EST. My ear ring is more important that the schedule.

Yesterday was bad, Today is better

I had a semi-shitty day yesterday.

I woke up feeling weak and tired. It was my first day and I was hormonal. Ugh! HR kept texting me about some requirements that I failed to submit earlier, I had to look for some of them.

Then as I was about to take a shower, I noticed that my right ear-ring was missing and I panicked! Pucha that piece was given to me by my Mom from the US. Diamante yata. I looked all over my room and the bathroom but I could not find it. I was thinking that if I dropped my ear-ring at home, I could still find it. But if it was dropped at work or in the cab, that's it! Goodbye hikaw. Patay!

While taking a shower the next door neighbor started taking a shower too. Natural, we had to share the resources and I ended up getting less because they were closer to the source. Buwiset! Kung kelan nagmamadali ako. Magkasunod pa sila naligo ha! And to think they were not going anywhere at 4:30 in the afternoon, day off nilang mag asawa. Of course, I could have just asked them to give way to me since I was going to work and I was almost done but I did not have the energy to ask. Siyempre I would have to go out with conditioner in my hair and in a robe and towel. Not a nice sight. Kahit tapos na akong maligo, iniwanan kong bukas ang gripo full force para mapuno yung big pail ko at mahirapan sila mag ipon ng tubig for a while. Hehehe.

After taking a shower and dressing up, I had to look around for the last time for my ear-ring. Ikot ako ng ikot. I was getting more tired moving around and not finding it. I gave up and went to work. Na late ako ng 5 mins because of this. Buti considerate ang trainer ko.

After our shift, we were sent our schedules. Since the schedule was not final and unassigned, our trainer decided to give it to our batch so we could choose our scheds. The file was sent to one guy so it's but normal he gets to read the sched first. Malas ko, I was the last to see it. They all were able to get their scheds, I ended up getting what was left. The guy who got the list of scheds wanted the same sched I wanted but he was holding the list of schedules. Nauna na raw sya and he won't give it up daw. Sabi ko I won't give up either. It came to a point where he said something like makikipag away daw sya sa akin if he doesn't get it or aawayin nya ako. I said makikipag away din ako. I was looking at the schedule but I could not focus because he kept yapping and talking noisily. He kept saying hindi sya papayag at gusto niya toss coin na lang. Susme! Kalalaking tao sasabihan ang babae na aawayin nya! Tapos kung anu ano pa sinasabi. Nainis ako so I said he can keep the sched because there is no way the issue will be resolved. He said he wanted to toss the coin with me but I refused and I started to walk away. He still kept yapping, he said magmumukha raw siyang masama. Huh? Ano ba yan?! I told him it will never be resolved that way so he can have it. I walked and never looked back (drama!).

I understand his point that he wanted the sched. Sa totoo lang ang pangit ng ginawa nilang sched because the it appears that the morning shift people has the advantage of getting a closer to normal time and days off. The night shift scheds had days off right in the middle of the week. Sino ba magkakagusto nito? Nakakainis diba? Nakakaturn off yung ko worker ko kse he was acting like a kid and he said things like aawayin ako. Kalalaki nyang tao sasabihin yon, dinig pa ng ibang agents on the flooor. Mas matanda pa ako sa kanya, he should have shown a little more respect rather that saying makikigpag away siya sa akin within the ear shot of the other people around us. Kaya ayun, walk out ang lola. Of course I showed some petulance by walking out but I'd rather give up that sched that argue loudly with him. If he feels or thinks he looks bad infront of the other people, that's not my problem anymore.

I got home exhausted physically and emotionally. I wanted to just go to sleep and forget about everything but I couldn't. I felt I needed to resolve one issue, my ear-ring. I hoped that I dropped it at home and not anywhere else. I had to sweep/clean my room and the bathroom for the last time. Pinagpag ko pa bed ko, removed my pillows and blanket and ran my palms and fingers onto the surface of the bed sheet. Walang hikaw. I shifted through the dirt and found nothing. When I finally hit my bed, I felt worse than ever. As I was sliding my hands under my pillows I was thinking, what if I suddenly feel my ear-ring under my pillow at nandon lang pala. In less than a minute, I felt something like a big piece of dirt under my pillow. It felt odd so I turned on the light to see what it was...

Mystery of the Black Dot

I'm dedicating this post to all the bloggers who greeted me on my birthday: Austin Pinoy, Buraot, Jego, PMonchet, Grifter, Techguy, An, Manilenya, MommyBa, Mari, JC Smith, I hope you learn something from this post.



This is a really strange optical illussion. Stare at the black dot in the middle of the photo. Do you see the baby?

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Interpretation of My Dream

Inspite of the things I know, the "skills" I've learned, I can't still interpret my own dreams. I am able to interpret dreams of other people, people who are close to me, but I can't interpet my own.
Maybe a part of me inhibits myself from making the interpretation because I may involve my feelings or emotions when I do my own interpretation. Sometimes I second guess myself. Not that I do not believe I can't interpret my own dreams, it's just that I'm worried I may not be objective when it comes to my dreams.
Hmm... I had an unusual dream last night, a good yet bad dream. Flying, trip, leaving. I was about to go up but I didn't quite make it. I got the visa and the ticket. I didn't have a good suitcase, I wasn't prepared. I was one from the last bunch to board the plane, I nearly didn't get through because I didn't give my correct info. Then as I was about to board the plane, I saw "things" scattered or left behind by the people who went before us. I picked up these things so I could give them to those who left them. I wasn't able to get inside the plane, it took off while I was still on the steps. I could have gotten in the plane but I was thinking of the kids my companions had with them. I mean, people from my group were carrying kids and I was thinking I should help them. Then I woke up...

While I was typing this piece, it just dawned on me what my dream means. I've been all too concerned with people around me, picking the pieces of the lives of other people, helping other people. This gets in the way of fixing my life. I'm not able to prepare myself for my opportunities because I'm not focused on my life.

Yes. This is what my subconscious has told me. This is true.

Photo from Brilliant Dreams

Astral Projection or Sign of Impending Doom?

At around 6:30 PM, I stood up from my table and left what I was doing just to check my messages. I saw 2 new messages and as I was about to open one, our maid gave me a missed call. I thought she had an urgent request to make so I checked her message first. She said something like: "Ate akala ko ba aalis ka, nandito ka lang pala. Ano gusto mo lutin ko for dinner?" I found her message strange so I immediately called up the house. As soon as she realized that she was talking to me, she was surprised. She found it weird I was calling her at home when I was at home. I told her I left for work at 2:40PM so I can't be at home right now. "Huuuuu! Si ate naman niloloko ako. Nakita lang kita kanina kumuha ng tubig tapos umakyat ka na sa kuwarto mo eh. San ka ba talaga?" I insisted I was at work. She freaked out. "Ate nakita kita ngayon ngayon lang kaya ng ako nag text sa iyo. Naka puting t-shirt ka, kumuha ka pa nga ng tubig tapos umakyat ka eh! Wag mo akong bibiruin ng ganyan. Kinikilabutan ako!" I told her that she was probably dreaming, namamalik mata lang sya or that she saw me earlier but thought it was later. I got goosebumps while I was talking to her. "Hindi puwedeng kanina pa yon. Pagkakita ko sa iyo nag text agad ako at nag miss call para makapagluto na ako eh. Naku ate, mag iingat ka sa pag uwi mo! Kinikilabutan ako!" So I told her to open all the lights in the house and then stay at my aunt's place till someone arrives. I arrived home around 10:30 PM, she was awakened by the noises I was making in the kitchen. She went out and when she saw me I told her, "Ako talaga ito, hindi multo." She gave a nervouse laugh and told me exactly what happened. She described the same clothes I was wearing. Althought she ironed my shirt that morning, she didnt see me leave the house and see me in the exact same clothes when I left. She said that she saw me take my drink from the fridge then turned to leave the kitchen then went upstairs to my room. She even heard my footfalls. I told her she probably saw her tita who just passed away and she even went to the lamay that night kaya puyat sya and seeing things. She said it wasnt her tita she saw, she had enough sleep in the afternoon and it had been hours after she woke up when she saw me. I asked her if she saw me at the corner of her eye, she said she turned to look at me and she saw me but she didnt see my face.
This morning, I went to visit my aunt who lives next door. She told me at once that some 2 weeks ago she saw me, at around 7-7:30 AM having breakfast in the kitchen. Then she went out with her daughter and she also saw me in the living room going towards the altar. She was able to see me through the windows kasi walang kurtina sa buong bahay, general cleaning kasi. She kinda shouted at me saying, "Bukas pa ang ilaw nyo dito sa harap," so I would turn off the night light outside. She found it strange that I didnt respond to her or acknowledge her. A few minuntes later she saw that our light was still on. She thought that maybe I didnt hear what she said. She brushed this off as nothing. She only realized now how strange it was that it seemed I was in 2 places at the same time and that I didn't acknowledge her comment. She said got goosebumps as she the maid told her the story and kinda got some weird feeling that this happened 2 times already, "Bakit ikaw?" she asked. I said "Baka malapit na akong mamatay?" to which her respose was , "Oo nga!" I laughed because she seems convinced that these were signs that something bad was going to happen to me.
Prayers, mass offering, incense burning are some of the "tips" concerned people gave me to avert whatever bad thing's supposed to happen to me. Nakakatamad hehehe. I guess if it's my time to go then it's my time to go.

Advance goodbye to everyone, till next lifetime?