Tuesday, August 31, 2004


It seems like gmail's been sending out more invites lately. Hmmm... Is this a postive sign? I hope so. Now, who should get my invites? How about the first one to post a comment and leave a message on my shoutbox will get the invite.
UPGEC members/alumni, you have to post a comment on one of my entries that mentions upgeclub, there are 3 actually. Then put say something in my shoutbox. That's it!
Once you've done those, send me an email with the following: name andvalid email address. No yahoo or hotmail email addresses please, they put the invites in your junk or trash. Sometimes the invites get filtered out.
Oh, the gmail invite comes with an orkut invite. What's orkut you say? You will know soon.
Please don't forget to give me your name and how you got my blog's URL (yahoogroups/thepinoy/my mailing list/blogger) so I could easily identify you.
I'm supposed to post something pensive but it can wait. Hehehe.
I wonder who's first...

Monday, August 30, 2004

God's Listening For The Sound of a Thankful Heart

By Roy Lessin, Co-founder, DaySpring Cards

One day, while paying my electric bill, I decided to thank the company for the service they were providing me. "Thanks for my electricity," I said, "It's really quite a bargain for all the benefits I receive." "What!" said the lady behind the counter, in amazement, "That's the first time anyone has ever thanked us. All I ever hear around here are complaints."

It's a challenge to grow up with a thankful heart. From an early age we are exposed to a culture of complainers, gripers, grumblers, and critics. We complain about the weather, traffic, food, work, neighbors, bills, the government, church, and life in general. Worst of all, we are ungrateful toward God. It would be hard to count the number of complaints and criticisms that are daily spoken before Him and against Him. How can we, who have received so much, be thankful for so little?

One of the great indicators of true spirituality is not measured by how many times we go to church, how big our Bibles are, or how long we pray, but it is measured by the level of gratitude that is in our hearts. When we are ungrateful, the heart of God is saddened, the Holy Spirit is grieved, and the joy of the Lord is quenched within us.

"When ye will offer a sacrifice of thanksgiving unto the Lord, offer it at your own will."
- Leviticus 22:29 KJV
Being thankful sweetens you, grumbling sours you; being thankful brings sunshine to your countenance, being ungrateful casts a shadow; being thankful brings a melody to your words, criticism makes you sound like a clanging cymbal; being thankful keeps your feet on the pathway of celebration, complaint takes you down the road of despair.

When our hearts are filled with gratefulness we may feel like our thanksgiving is inadequate, but we can be certain that our thanksgiving is always appropriate. It will gladden the heart of God to hear your heartfelt thanks being freely offered to Him today.

My cousin sent this to me a few months ago. I just want to share this with everyone. I have so much to be thankful for, inspite of my condition I am richly blessed!

Sunday, August 29, 2004

Calvin and Hobbes

ch920210, originally uploaded by fionski.

A Calvin and Hobbes comic strip. I'm not sure of the date, I think Sept 1992. I feel like I'm Calvin, calling myself informationally impared!

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Andy Rooney on "Older Women"

Andy Rooney on “Older Women”:

Andy Rooney says, "As I grow in age, I value older women most of all. Here are just a few reasons why:

An older woman will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.

An older woman knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 50 give a damn what you might think about her.

An older single woman usually has had her fill of "meaningful relationships" and "commitment". The last thing she needs in her life is another dopey, clingy, whiny, dependent lover.


Older women are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Most older women cook well. They care about cleanliness and are generous with praise, often undeserved. An older woman has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends.

A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Older women couldn't care less. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to an older woman. They always know.

An older woman looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women or drag queens. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, an older woman is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Her libido's stronger, her fear of pregnancy gone. Her experience of lovemaking is honed and reciprocal and she's lived long enough to know how to please a man in ways her daughter could never dream of. (Young men, you have something to look forward to.)

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off you are a jerk if you are acting like one. Yes, we praise older women for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed babe of 70 there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress. Ladies, I apologize for all of us. That men are genetically inferior is no secret. Count your blessings that we die off at a far younger age, leaving you the best part of your lives to appreciate the exquisite woman you've become, without the distraction of some demanding old man clinging and whining his way into your serenity.

(Andy Rooney is a social commentator on CBSÂ’s 60 Minutes)


Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Calvin and Hobbes

From Calvin and Hobbes:
"Every day of my life i'm forced to add another name in the list of people that piss me off".

Good Grief!

Why do I even bother giving my time and attention to people who do not care for me?
Why do I even assume that they would, even just for a minute, stop to think that I have my problems too?
Why do I even try to be empathetic to people who do not have the capacity to understand my feelings and other people's feelings?
People want to be understood but they don't want to try to understand others. It's human nature to be self centered specially when depressed but how long can one remain depressed and be self absorbed without exhausting the goodness/kindness of others?
Something was said to me that obviously was passing judgement on me:

(6:37:46 AM): i dont know why you cant understand me
(6:51:00 AM): how would you undersatnd how not to worry, youa re good in not thinking and ignoring and not worrying
(6:51:05 AM): that is what i admire abt you
These statements were not flattering and they were said to me at 6AM. The classic example of acting without thinking, which was how we got into the discussion because the said person acted coldly then regretted it and started freaking out after realizing the damage that's been done. Not my fault that you acted that way so don't give me grief over your actions and words then say "I don't know why you don't understand me, I don't know why you're offended."

Monday, August 23, 2004

Letting Go...

I got this from MARTIAN(Marvin). I already posted this before but I just want to show this to everyone once again. It seems some people need emotional grounding...

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it take too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to ...LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ... LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge .. LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction .. LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents ... LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better... LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him... LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .... LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!!

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Naaalala Mo Pa Ba Ang Panahon Na...

1. Pogi ka kung kasama sa porma mo ang Sperry Topsiders, K-Swiss, Espadrilles (na pinilahan mo pa sa Whistle Stop o sa Cash and Carry), Tretorn or Dragonfly sneakers, white Spartan sneakers, argyle socks, woven leather belts, Chaser, Lacoste, Ralph Lauren at iba pa, one-size-fits-all Hanes T-shirt with the print of your favorite New Wave band, pabangong Chaps, Bowling Green, G! ray Flannel or Kouros, Denman brushes, Dippity Do or Dep hair gel, Bermuda shorts worn with plaid long- sleeves.

2. Macho ka kung ang porma mo ay parang kay Don Johnson ng Miami Vice at kung naglalaro ka ng football o nag-aaral ka ng tae kwon do or marunong mag butterfly kick tulad ni Ralph Macchio sa Karate Kid. Sobrang macho ka kung may pandesal ka sa tiyan habang nakasuot ng hanging shirt.

3. Pretty ka kung meron kang pencil-cut skirt (calf-length, three to four inches above the ankle), pabangong Nenuco o De Ne Nes, permed hair a la Madonna or teased bangs na pinatigas ng Aquanet, shoulder pads ala Joan Collin a.k.a. Alexis Carrington in Dynasty), Benetton shirt, Esprit outfit at namimili ka ng gamit sa Sari-Sari, Tokyo Hannah, Tickles and Regina's in Shoppesville.

4. In na in ka kung napuntahan mo ang mga concerts nina Mike Francis, Swing Out Sisters, Menudo, Earth, Wind and Fire, James Ingram, Genesis noong unang punta pa lang nila dito sa Pilipinas.

5. Sosyal ka kung malimit ka sa Jazz Rhythm & Booze at kumakain ka sa Cafe Ysabel, Bistro Burgos, Dean Street Cafe, Angelino's and East St. Lois, Cosmo and Kudo's at nag-babakasyon ka sa Matabungkay Beach Club o Baguio Country Clulb.

6. Wala pang videoke kundi karaoke.

7. Ang preso lang may tattoo.

8. Akala mo'y magkakatuluyan sina Ate Shena at Kuya Bodjie sa Batibot.

9. Ang intindi mo ng LOL ay ULOL imbes na Laughing Out Loud.

10. Na-tsismis na bulati ang beef patty ng Jollibee.

11. Kinilig ka nang malaman mong ikakasal si Pops at si Martin.

12. Piso lang ang isang basong taho at kailangan mong magdala ng sarili mong baso kasi wala pang plastic cups no'n si manong magtataho.

13. Lechon Manok pa ang pinag lilihihan ng taumbayan.

14. Tarzan, Jojo, Bazooka Joe, Clover bits at Tootsie Roll ang pinagkakagastusan mo ng mga beintesinko mo.

15. Nagkakakalyo ka dahil typewriter pa ang ginagamit mo para sa mga school paper mo...kaya bentang-benta pa ang carbon paper at liquid paper.

16. Sa Ortigas Center ka tinuturuang magmaneho kasi puro talahib pa yon no'n.

17. Cool ang bumati sa iyong crush sa FM radio.

18. May mascot pa ang 99.5 RT na binebenta sa Gift Gate.

19. Baduy pa noon si Lea Salonga dahil sa That's Entertainment.

20. Iniisip mong dapat mag-retire na si Jaworski dahil kuwarenta na siya.

21. Si Harry Gasser ang newscaster ng bayan.

22. Kay Amado Pineda ka lang naniniwala pag ukol sa panahon ang balita.

23. Egoy na egoy pa si Michael Jackson..

24. Sintonado pa ang Eraserheads habang nag-ja-jamming sa Club Dredd.

25. Tinuruan kang mag-toning ng iyong nanay dahil kay Johnny Midnite.

26. Naglalagay ka ng pyramid sa tabi ng iyong unan para good vibes.

27. Nilalagyan mo ng watch-guard ang iyong Swatch.

28. Herbert Bautista was a campus politician.

29. P18 to $1 ang palitan sa black market.

30. May black market pa noon.

31. Illegal pa ang mga paputok.

32. Ang paborito mong tsokolate ay Chocnut at Mallows.

33. Drag race sa Greenhills at Corinthians

34. Kumain sa Burger machine o sa Goodahhhh ng madaling araw.

Pag naalala mo ito, magkasing tanda na pala tayo!

Saturday, August 21, 2004

This Song is for my Mom

My Mom just called. Dad's at her place and having brunch.
Earlier I sent her a text msg asking her how Dad is. She said she's still looking for my Dad's itinerary and can't find it. I had to send her the details via SMS. Then after about an hour I got 2 msgs from her. She said she doesn't know the carrier# of my Dad, she won't find him if she doesn't have the details. She seemed rattled due to the excitement, nagulo ang buhok ng mudra!
Kanina when she called, I could hear happiness in her voice. I could just picture her smiling, with puppy dog eyes looking at my Dad while he stuffs himself with bread and whatever's being served. HP na Nanay ko! So the song is for my Mom.
Bear with me.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Sad and Silent

Just got back from the airport, we brought Dad there. His plane will be leaving in 1 hour and 40 mins.
This house will be a lot quieter now that he's gone. His absence will be felt for a while. I live in a sad and silent house. After I sent my message to my sister and my mom saying nakakalungkot, I turned off my cell. I just didn't want to hear anything else from anyone.
I don't feel like saying anything more.

Last Chance

Last Chance

I'm so tired. I have forgotten how stress can be physically taxing. Any kind of stress, whether is postive stress or negative stress, can do things to your body.
My head is aching, my eyes are heavy. I feel like I've cried for 3 hours last night.
What's causing my stress? A lot! My Dad is leaving today for the US so we are all anxious. Then there's school which I'm going to flunk (btw, I keep saying this, it just might happen!). plus my personal life. Oops, I nearly forgot, the household budget. It's so hard to manage the my finances, let alone this entire household!
I need a long, relaxing massage. I also need a drink...

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Got a Problem....Here's the Solution!!

I used to subscribe to eprayer.org before they closed down. I read a lot of good inspirational stuff there, too bad they had to close down and I lost all my files in 2000. Luckily I was able to send this to a few friends. Take time to read and absorb.


The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them. Unfortunately most people fail to see how God wants to use problems for good in their lives. They react foolishly and resent their problems rather than pausing to consider what benefit they might bring. Here are five ways God wants to use the problems in your life

1. God uses problems to DIRECT you. Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? "Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways." Proverbs 20:30 (GN)

2. God uses problems to INSPECT you. People are like tea bags... if you want to know what's inside them, just drop them into hot water! Has God ever tested your faith with a problem? What do problems reveal about you? "When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience." James 1:2-3 (NCV)

3. God uses problems to CORRECT you. Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It's likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove. But you probably learned by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something... health, money, a relationship... by losing it. "It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws." Psalm 119:71-72 (LB)

4. God uses problems to PROTECT you. A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management's actions were eventually discovered. "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good..." Genesis 50:20 (NIV)

5. God uses problems to PERFECT you. Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. Gods far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you're going to take with you into eternity. "We can rejoice when we run into problems... they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady." Romans 5:3-4 (LB)

Here's the point: God is at work in your life - even when you do not recognize it or understand it. But it's much easier & profitable when you cooperate with Him!

(Inspirational submitted by: Sharon Coffer )

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Hope For My Parents

I've been feeling stressed lately. Partly because of my studies(which I'm about to fail, btw). Another part is my personal life which is really... blah! The last part would be about my Dad and the last minute bilins from my Mom, which can be nerve wrecking. He is leaving for the US on the 19th but he will leave tomorrow, he will be staying at my sister's place for 1 night to be with them, to be with his favorite apo, Irvin.

I feel happy for my Mom because she will be with my Dad now. This is what she has always wanted. They will live together without us, their children, and without all other mirons in their lives. All their married life they have been living with other people like their parents and other siblings. They can now start fresh. She will be HP soon. She needs my Dad to have someone to lean on especially now that she's been sick lately.

At the same time I feel sad because I won't be seeing him for a long time. I know we have had our tiffs every now and then but he's still my Dad. I may "hate" him for treating my Mom badly but I know he cares for her and she loves him a lot. He is the Mr. Fix It here, especially when we are on speaking terms hehehe. I'm going to miss my Dad.

I'm going to be sad for a while but I'm sure this is for their own good. This is a good time for them to fix their relationship. Hopefully my Mom would be able to bring my Dad to church often and he would get closer to Him. I know the Lord has plans for them and He will take good care of them.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Kinda, Sorta Happy... Slightly

I'm kinda, sorta, happy.... Sort of slightly. Heeheehee.
I shared a special simple moment with someone special to me. We just leave our PCs on even if we are not chatting or doing anything. It may sound funny or strange to some but I feel somewhat content even with the strange arrangement we have.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

My Happy "Childhood Memories"

This was taken March 2004. You can see from here that they can't keep still.

Posted by Hello
These are Renmund and Irvin, taken may 2003

Posted by Hello

Children and Childhood Memories

I love my blog! I love the way it looks. I love the music that I hear everytime come here. The Forrest Gump Theme reminds me of happy childhood memories, sugar and spice and all things nice. Life was then was fun, life was so much simpe then.
I seem to relive my childhood memories through my nephews when they are here with us. Whenever I'm feeling low, I would call them up just to hear their voices. When I was depressed a few months ago, I was lucky their parents let them stay here with us for a few days. It was so nice to hear the peals of laughter of kids in the house. This house used to be dead but it becomes alive when they are here. Oh, they can be so rowdy at times and I get irritated at times but it would eventually go away.
Since they are both in school now, I rarely see them. My eldest nephew, Renmund, would call me every now and then just to say hi, just to talk. I love this kid like my own. I was his surrogate mom. His younger brother, Irvin, just started going to play school this school year. Boy he learns fast! He can count and can identify colors. A few months ago he couldn't differentiate blue from red. He knows how to dial the phone and he would call almost everyday, just because he can, no reason at all.
It's so soothing to hear their voices on the phone. It's almost like having my own kids. Whenever I see them I would kiss and hug and smother them. When they are here, we would play kilitian. I used to tickle the eldest a lot but I can't do that anymore because of his asthma. He would have a hard time breathing if he starts laughing hard. So I make it a point not to make him laugh so hard. We would play silly games that would make the three of us laugh. This is how I relive my childhood memories.

Friday, August 13, 2004

My Degree

Come September, I will, most likely, be failing school and be getting this instead:

The University of Blogging

Presents to

An Honorary
Bachelor of

Majoring in
Dr. GoQuiz.com


Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com

Wednesday, August 11, 2004


Ang init ng ulo ko!! Ang daming KSP nakakalat sa paligid ko!!

First off:
This guy who is so mayabang, would always brag that he would buy all his friends gifts and send them here to the Philippines. He announced in the chatroom that his package for everyone has arrived and that I should get in touch with this girl who received it for us. Right after he said that she left. Then he asked me if I could just contact her and if I know her number. I told him that I'm not sure if the number that I have is hers. Then he started bitching that he's the only one who knows the numbers of the girls there. Give me a break!! In the first place I don't chat as often as he does and I don't see her online, she is always parked but she's away from her keyboard. Second, if she has the package then she should be the one to get in touch with me. I don't want her to think kinukulit ko sya over the package. And if that was her we saw online, then why did she leave the chatroom right after he mentioned the package in the main room? Makes me think there's something wrong here! What I don't like about this guy is that he wants to show everyone that he's cool and he's popular and he's well liked. WAKE UP KNUCLEHEAD!! You may have lots of money, have lots of nice clothes and the latest hardware for your PC but YOU CAN NEVER BUY FRIENDSHIP!!

Next pet peeve for today.
I usually leave my PC online overnight but I always change my YM status message as ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz (sleeping or tulog na or gnite world) so everyone on my list would not PM me unless it's very important. My goodness! A "friend" of mine went online and sent me this at 4AM:

friend (4:08:23 AM): hi
friend (4:08:27 AM): sleeping
friend (4:08:39 AM): k
friend (4:08:48 AM): sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite..

He had to wake me up just to check if I'm already sleeping???? Was he trying to be funny or he's just plain stupid????

Last but not the least pet peeve for today.
Everytime this girl sees me come into the room she greets me. Nothing bad about that. But it has come to a point that even if I'm AFK or BRB she would send me notices. One time she asked me how to upload an avatar (for someone who is into IT stuff you don't know how to do that?). So being the nice and helpful ATE, I went to the site. I told her where exactly in the website she can change her profile and upload her avatar. To my surprise she told me that she wasn't in the site so she can't do it that moment. WTF?!?! Why would even ask me in the first place?? She knew I was going to log on to the site just so I could assist her. Then yesterday she kept sending me notice messages that she's got her on blog. She kept on bugging me about it. When I asked her what the URL of her blog is she couldn't give it to me. She is some freak!! This time, I've been quiet on my YM, she sends me messages, 10 stupid lines that don't mean anything!!! She pasted to me lyrics of a song!! Why do I care if she knows the song or not?! That's the last KSP thing she's gonna do to me!! If at 1 or 2 messages and I don't respond to you even if my status is available then stop sending me messages!! I could be away or I could be busy doing something that very moment!!

My goodness!! Don't these people have any sense of propriety??? My parents would always tell me not to speak unless you are spoken (to), didn't their parents teach them this? Just because someone is online doesn't mean you can just talk to this person. Don't they know the meaning of "personal space"? You have invaded my personal space by assuming you can just talk to me anytime!! Do I talk to you anytime? Do I talk to you unless I ask for your permission? Have the common sense to know when to talk to this person. Have the simple courtesy of asking if he/she is busy before you start yapping!!
Stop being KSP please!! GET A LIFE!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Re: [upgeclub] pakiusap lang

And now, Ma Ann's delayed reaction...

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Ma-ann E. Arquiza
Date: Sun, 8 Aug 2004 11:13:04 -0700 (PDT)
Subject: Re: [upgeclub] pakiusap lang

i was cleaning my inbox and i guess this e-mail fell through the cracks bec. i just got to read it now. so sorry kung sobrang delayed na 'tong reaction ko to what paolo wrote, but i wanted to comment anyway. and my comment is:

I AGREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you! finally, someone spoke up! thanks Paolo. good to know I'm not the only one who is irritated with people who don't bother to spell out their words or can't spell correctly anymore. if anything, for me it's out of respect for my readers. if i can take the extra effort to make myself more readable then why not, my readers are worth the extra effort. also sa mga mumi-me, (i.e. hr n me, wr n u?; d2 n me; slp n me;) PLEASE LANG! as Paolo rightly pointed out, it's not cute. it's so jologs.

also, given that phones are getting more and more advanced these days, try turning the Dictionary feature on. it's easy when you get the hang of it and it'll keep your spelling and grammar skills from deteriorating. it's important to have that discipline esp. when you step into the corporate world.

Note: Check previous July posts or click on the title link of this entry

New Look

I love the way my blog looks now! It's so clean and simple, well except for the graphics that I put here which clutter my space. Hahaha!
Oh dear! I haven't done anything right! EXAMS!!!!!

Friday, August 06, 2004

This is so true!!

Your Icecream Flavour is...
French Vanilla!
You're a smooth and silky suave type! You exude class and you believe in tradition. A classical taste who doesn't like things to be too flashy or showy. Climb the Eiffel tower of taste with a spoonfull of you! Oui Oui!
What is your Icecream Flavour?

Find out at Go Quiz

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Some Things Never Change

Somethings never change talaga. No matter what I do or where I go, people would come to me help. People from all walks of life, regardless of age, gender, culture, sexual orientation, etc. would come to me to seek my assistance in whatever it is they can't seem to handle; from love problems, which is fairly common, to technical problems, which I'm not an expert.
True to my nature, I would end up helping all these people. I don't mind helping people, it's just that these people would eventually become dependent on me for a lot of things. Instead of reading the help file of some software or the detailed instructions on how to do something, these people would expect ME to tell them what to do! Not only that, the same people you help, the same people who would call you up in the middle of the night for some mundane love problem they "feel" they need to tell you, these people won't be around when you need them. How many times have I experienced being brushed off as unimportant when I turn to these people for help or just to talk? A lot! This is why I've grown tired of helping others. When I have problems, I have no one to turn to, these people won't give you the time of day. I have become tougher now, I know how to say NO. I can spot emotional vampires before they can suck the life out of me.

Two things everyone should realize:
1. There is a set of instructions or a manual that comes with every gadget you use, READ IT. Don't expect everyone to help you all the time. Read the manual that came w/ it. It's not enought that you know how to use something, you should also know how to troubleshoot it or be willing to spend for repairs.
2. You can't get what you can't give, or maybe, you don't want to give. Don't expect me to be always there for you, to listen to you if you don't know how to listen to me. How can I be a friend to you if you don't know how to be a friend to me? If you treat my concerns as trivial then don't come to me for advice, I'm trivial remember?

Tuesday, August 03, 2004


I know I should be posting my thoughts here and not the stuff I get from other people. I find it hard to be serious all the time. Even in the face of a crisis, I would always find a way to make fun of my situation or link my situation to something amusing.
I read this blog from a friend and I saw colors. I couldn't help but cry. Although I haven't seen her and the child, I somehow feel some form of attachment to them. I have been critical of her actions and indifferent toward his lifestyle but the kid is just a kid and he is innocent of his parents' sins.
I find it strange that I feel deeply and strongly for the loss. I can only imagine the pain a mother feels when she loses her child. It's more than losing a lover, it's losing an extension of your life. I can imagine the deep, dark void inside her, nothing can ever fill the emptiness she now feels.
I'm sorry. I wish I could comfort you but you never came to me for comfort. I'm sorry for being critical. I just wanted you to do the right thing, be the best you can be.
And for you, the father, I hope you find it in your heart to change, be a better man. You can never find happines in temporal things.
Both of you, have peace in your hearts. Go with God.
To the one in heaven playing with the angels, pray for your parents.